Elleree

I feel sad, suddenly. It's settled on me out of nowhere and it is quite odd. I think I have never got over my grief, my grief for so many things. I don't even feel like typing them all out. I suppose I'm mini-venting. Okay, I know, an odd journal.

This poem is running through my mind and so I'll share part of it with you--I didn't type out the whole thing because I'm lazy.

Excerpt from "To shout in the ruins" by Louis Aragon

Let's spit the two of us let's spit
On what we loved
On what we loved the two of us…
I imagine
What is dark and incomparable passing between us
Like a dialogue of mirrors abandoned
In a baggage-claim somewhere say Foligno
Or Bourboule in the Auvergne
Certain names are charged with a distant thunder
Yes let's spit the two of us on these immense landscapes…
Where little rented cars cruise by
Yes because something must still…  
Reconcile us yes let's spit
The two of us it's a waltz
A kind of convenient sob…
A waltz of mirrors
A dialogue in the void
Listen to these immense landscapes where the wind
Cries over what we loved…
I remember a deserted village
On the shoulder of a scorched mountain
I remember your shoulder
I remember your elbow your linen your footprints
I remember a town where there was no horse
I remember your look which scorched
My deserted heart a dead Mazeppa whom a horse
Carries away like that day on the mountain…  
I remember so many things
So many evenings rooms walks rages
So many stops in worthless places
Where in spite of everything the spirit of mystery rose up
Like the cry of a blind child in a remote train depot

Oookay I got tagged by the loverly so I'm updating this. I rarely ever do update the journal--who wants to here about boring ole me? LOL XD Anyway here we go.

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself" and people who get tagged MUST write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things/hates as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours.

1.) I knead my feet like a kitten when I'm going to sleep. Not on purpose either...

2.) Whenever I'm about to really cry, I mean really really sob and I'm trying not to do so, my lower lip trembles and I can't stop it. It drives me crazy! I can't make it tremble on purpose but once it starts I can't stop it.

3.) I can't turn my mind off when I'm trying to go to sleep. I have trouble sleeping as it is and my brain doesn't shut up. Sooo sometimes I put on my headphones, put a song on repeat, and concentrate on the music to drown my thoughts out. Sometimes this helps me sleep. Other times it just makes me listen to more music. XD

4.) I am a writer and I love writing but I have a problem---the over editing bug! *dun dun DUN* Meaning I edit and reedit and fix fix fix my stories until it drives me nuts. I guess I'm a big writing perfectionist. I only stop when I finally can't take fixing the story anymore. But sometimes I go back to it.

5.) I can't stand to leave my hair down when I'm trying to work on a project, take a test, concentrate really hard. I guess it is because my hair is naturally curly (crazy curly) and I hate it so it distracts me I dunno.

6.) I still like cartoons. Well, some cartoons anyway. And I love to read and I like video games so I guess I'm a nerd. lol.

Okay, who shall I tag? Well, personally, I don't like being forced into things so I will officially change the rules and tell these peops that it is optional.

I'm tagging... , , ,  , , .

Yeah, I'm STILL living. XD Despite the professors trying to kill me. I keep getting more excited about being a senior as they keep piling all the work on me lol. Of course, I only half count as a senior since I'm thinking about grad school, but still a summer off would be a blessing at this point. Actually, I'm so excited about Thanksgiving break it's ridiculous. (No classes! And food. And no classes! XD)  My scanner still is kinda iffy but we bought a new one at home although I have yet to hook it up. I may convince mom to trade me if I like the new one. This one distorts colors.

Projects:
1) Finish NSK Dark Side comic

2) Upload sketches of my kitties and sketch out my two dogs, Dakota and Pluto

3)Sketch Katori Callen pic

4) Finish Pic of SWAT Kats

5) Sketch Mom with Pappaw

6) Draw my two favorite cowboys Hannibal Heyes and Kid Curry from Alias Smith and Jones as anthros. ^-^ (No i don't like most westerns, but this one made me love it cuz they're so cute lol)

7) Niobe picture

8) Cleopatra picture

9) Practice drawing chibis. (I suck at them)

10) Work on WWII project thingee

*flail* Gotta love this time of the year, real life is busy, busy, busy. The teachers sink their teeth into your neck around Thanksgiving--I've had about a billion presentations and led class discussion about a million times now and the amounts of tests and papers due are ridiculous. I guess I brought it on myself--I added another major. So now I'm a double major but I'm still graduating on time, since I'd had the minor and there weren't that many hours to add. So yay for me. XD Add to that project list 20 credit hours of college classes and homework, writing projects, papers, writing projects, and exams. As I said in my last journal: 0_o!!! Wish me luck. XD

Clubs I'm in:
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Yay for Clubs!

Well, I'm still alive. I'm back at school after a summer of back problems and summer classes >_<; At least it's my senior year--time to start thinking about grad school, yikes. I promise to try and stay more up to date on here. ^^ I won't be able to until my scanner is fixed tho. :sigh: Stuff to do:

1) Upload NSK COM pic of Tack and Cyber (Done! )

2) Upload Jules/LivingAngel piccy (Done! ^_^)

3) Upload NSK Fight a Villain Challenge Entry (done!)

4)Sketch Katori Callen pic

5) Finish Pic of SWAT Kats

6) Sketch Mom with Pappaw

7) Draw my two favorite cowboys Hannibal Heyes and Kid Curry from Alias Smith and Jones as anthros. ^-^ (No i don't like most westerns, but this one made me love it cuz they're so cute lol)

8) Niobe picture

9) Cleopatra picture

Merr, real life keeps one busy. You see, this doesn't include having 20 credit hours of college classes and homework, writing projects, papers for college, and the infamous first exams. 0_o!!! lol. Wish me luck.

Clubs I'm in/affiliated with: ,  , , , Yay for Clubs!

Okay here's the deal--I got tagged. So I have to write six weird habits/things about myself" in a journal and also include this rule:

You need to write "6 weird habits/things about yourself" in a journal as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to chose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

I was tagged by and so I think I have to 12 quirks. I'm sure I have that many...

List One
1)When I am in bed and about to go to sleep I knead my feet like a cat. I always have. If I stop myself I can't go to sleep.
2)If I'm alone in an aisle at a store (or with a close friend or me mom) and I like the music that's playing I'll kinda dance along to it for a bit before I catch myself doing it.
3)The toes on my right foot pop whenever I barely move them most times.
4)My eyes are green in general but on the outer side of both of them there is a streak of blue.
5)I switch topics continuously in conversations and say random things to people and don't know why they don't get me.
6)I usually eat only one full meal a day and healthy stuff (and sometimes junk food) when I am at school.

List Two
1)I break into random songs when i'm with people I'm comfortable around and I'f I'm not I just hear them in my head and don't sing them lol.
2)I have a small barn-thingee called the "Cat House" in my backyard that is home to 6 out of 9 cats we own. It has heat, fans, windows, beds, toys, all the cool stuff, as well as an outdoor run in the woods that is covered all the way around so nothing can get in to the kitties and they can't get out on the road. They love it their lol.
3)I worked as a vet assistant. (I know boring one So I'll add that if u took my chars Elleree and Saima together you'd have a good pic of me even though the 2 chars are opposites.)
4)Sometimes I just have to write. I mean literally. If I don't I get very cranky and it affects me physically emotionally. The stories will be in my head and stay there and drive me crazy until I get them out onto paper. I am driven to write. Scary, huh?
5)Up until I was five years old I had blue eyes and then they turned green. 0_o I have pics and stuff to prove it.
6)I have a birthmark the shape of a star on my right hand.
All done! Okay so I tag....






(Ranica, I WAS going to tag you but decided 3 times was too many lol. )

While I'm at this whole journal thing, here's what I'm working on:
1)Scanning Finished Julie--pic for Anna ^^

2) Katori Callen as a vigilante. And her details.

3)Jules for LivingAngel

4)Saima as Saengdao looking at burning manor plus the fic

5)Pic of SWAT Kats.

6)Detail pic of Saima's markings/scars.

That's all. See ya guys!